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My friend Patrick posted thoughts about ZombieLand on his blog:
Today, we find it wholly unremarkable to set a coming-of-age comedy in a world full of zombies. 
 
It's easier to deal with post-apocalyptic chaos and trivialized violence than to cope with our own self-identified issues. Despite the planet on fire, zombies all around us, we can continue on with our lives much as before. Is this narcissistic autonomy the key to surviving in our modern world?

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Mon, 25 Jan 2010 11:19:09 -0800 Dear Craigslist http://calvinf.posterous.com/dear-craigslist http://calvinf.posterous.com/dear-craigslist Read: POSTER: Dear Craigslist, I am sorry

I recently subscribed to the RSS feed for LivingCraigslist.  It's an interesting site and his most recent post (the one linked above) is another example.

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Tue, 05 Jan 2010 23:18:45 -0800 Park http://calvinf.posterous.com/park-284 http://calvinf.posterous.com/park-284
A night-time palette of blacks, browns, grays, dirty greens, tiny explosions of yellow from lamps and windows.  The wind rushes back and forth, sways past the man on the swing, he times his breathing with the swinging.

A trash can with green metal paint flaking and sided by wooden slats, benches lonely and begging for spring, playground without rustling feet, the ballfield backstopped by metal webbing, fences, bricks, a concrete wheelchair ramp, eyeless bleachers. The giant pushes modern art standing never moving never seeing anything not in front of him.

The man swings and starts to sing his voice says, "everything's gonna be alright now, everything's gonna be alright, get down stay up all night now, we'll do this one more time."  He sings this one more time.

Five plastic seats held by chains and metal bars hold no body no one no thing.  Only the one swings, only the one.

A Poem by Calvin Freitas

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Tue, 05 Jan 2010 12:52:07 -0800 Avatar's Pantheism http://calvinf.posterous.com/avatars-pantheism http://calvinf.posterous.com/avatars-pantheism Russ Douthat has an excellent piece "Heaven and Nature" in the NYT about the pantheistic underpinnings of Avatar, the new sci-fi blockbuster courtesy of director James Cameron.  He makes the argument that "pantheism has been Hollywood’s religion of choice for a generation now."

Today there are other forces that expand pantheism’s American appeal. We pine for what we’ve left behind, and divinizing the natural world is an obvious way to express unease about our hyper-technological society. The threat of global warming, meanwhile, has lent the cult of Nature qualities that every successful religion needs — a crusading spirit, a rigorous set of ‘thou shalt nots,” and a piping-hot apocalypse.
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The question is whether Nature actually deserves a religious response. Traditional theism has to wrestle with the problem of evil: if God is good, why does he allow suffering and death? But Nature is suffering and death. Its harmonies require violence. Its “circle of life” is really a cycle of mortality. And the human societies that hew closest to the natural order aren’t the shining Edens of James Cameron’s fond imaginings. They’re places where existence tends to be nasty, brutish and short.
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 But except as dust and ashes, Nature cannot take us back.

(via the Bayly Blog)

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Sat, 02 Jan 2010 20:32:10 -0800 Bonhoeffer on Christian community http://calvinf.posterous.com/bonhoeffer-on-christian-community http://calvinf.posterous.com/bonhoeffer-on-christian-community
A passage about Christian community from Dietrich Bonhoeffer's book "Life Together" sent to me by my friend The Hermit.  Bonhoeffer was a German theologian, Lutheran pastor, and martyr who wrote extensively about theology and this piece on Christian community comes from that worldview.

Christianity means community through Jesus Christ and in Jesus Christ.  No Christian community is more or less than this . . . This fact that we are brethren only through Jesus Christ is of immeasurable significance. . . Not what a man is in himself as a Christian, his spirituality, and piety, constitutes the basis of our community.  What determines our brotherhood is what that man is by reason of Christ.  Our community with one another consists solely in what Christ has done for both of us.

Innumerable times a whole Christian community has broken down because it had sprung from a wish dream.  The serious Christian, set down for the first time in a Christian community, is likely to bring with him a very definite idea of what Christian life together should be and try to realize it.  But God's grace speedily shatters such dreams.  Just as surely as God desires to lead us to a knowledge of genuine Christian fellowship, so surely must we be overwhelmed by great disillusionment with others, Christians in general, and, if we are fortunate, with ourselves.

By sheer grace, God will not permit us to live even for a brief period in a dream world.  He does not abandon us to those rapturous experiences and lofty moods that come over us like a dream.  God is not a God of emotions but a God of truth.  Only that fellowship which faces such disillusionment, with all it's unhappy and ugly aspects, begins to be what it should be in God's sight, begins to grasp in faith the promise that is given to it.  The sooner this shock of disillusionment comes to an individual and to a community the better for both. . . Every human wish dream that is injected into the Christian community is a hindrance to genuine community and must be banished if genuine community is to survive.  He who loves his dream of community more than the Christian community itself becomes a destroyer of the latter, even though his personal intentions may be ever so honest and earnest and sacrificial.

God hates visionary dreaming; it makes the dreamer proud and pretentious.  The man who fashions a visionary ideal of community demands that it be realized by God, by others, and by himself. . . Because God has already laid the only foundation of our fellowship, because God has bound us together in the one body with other Christians in Jesus Christ, long before we entered into common life with them, we enter into that common life not as demanders but as thankful recipients.
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Christian community is like the Christian's sanctification. It is a gift of God which we cannot claim. Only God knows the real state of our fellowship, of our sanctification. What may appear weak and trifling to us may be great and glorious to God. Just as the Christian should not be constantly feeling his spiritual pulse, so, too, the Christian community has not been given to us by God for us to be constantly taking its temperature.  The more thankfully we daily receive what is given to us, the more surely and steadily will fellowship increase and grow from day to day as God pleases.

Christian brotherhood is not an ideal which we must realize; it is rather a reality created by God in Christ in which we may participate.  The more clearly we learn to recognize that the ground and strength and promise of all our fellowship is in Jesus Christ alone, the more serenely we shall think of our fellowship and pray and hope for it.

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Thu, 24 Dec 2009 14:49:29 -0800 Merry Christmas! http://calvinf.posterous.com/merry-christmas-946 http://calvinf.posterous.com/merry-christmas-946
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Thu, 17 Dec 2009 13:56:18 -0800 Precise Moment http://calvinf.posterous.com/precise-moment http://calvinf.posterous.com/precise-moment
Belief and nonbelief are two giant planets, the orbits of which don't touch. Everything about Christianity can be justified within the context of Christian belief. That is, if you accept its terms. Once you do, your belief starts modifying the data (in ways that are themselves defensible, see?), until eventually the data begin to reinforce belief. The precise moment of illogic can never be isolated and may not exist. Like holding a magnifying glass at arm's length and bringing it toward your eye: Things are upside down, they're upside down, they're right side up. What lay between? If there was something, it passed too quickly to be observed. This is why you can never reason true Christians out of the faith. It's not, as the adage has it, because they were never reasoned into it—many were—it's that faith is a logical door which locks behind you. What looks like a line of thought is steadily warping into a circle, one that closes with you inside.
- John Jeremiah Sullivan - "Upon This Rock", GQ, February 2004

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Tue, 15 Dec 2009 16:31:22 -0800 Finding a Way http://calvinf.posterous.com/finding-a-way http://calvinf.posterous.com/finding-a-way
Lost in the Cosmos:
As a result of the church’s failure, modern people, especially in the US, have turned to alternatives. Again drawing on Kierkegaard, Percy described one alternative as "rotation," the lust for the new just because it is new.  Perpetual travel, promiscuity, shopping, fad-mongering are different forms of the same quest, the desperate search for that finally satisfying something that may be just around the next bend, or in the next bed.

Questing:
A character in the grip of malaise begins to recognize his condition, and to recognize he is a pilgrim, or a knight on a quest.  The quest always involves suffering.  Comforts have to be stripped away so that people can feel life raw.

Resolution: 
Through ordeal, characters who are lost in the cosmos can find their way home.
 
 - Peter Leithart - "Canary in the Coal Shaft" - a blog post reviewing the works of Walker Percy

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Sat, 05 Dec 2009 14:29:57 -0800 Posterous API Library (PHP) - Test Post http://calvinf.posterous.com/test-post-from-posterous-api-library-in-php-0 http://calvinf.posterous.com/test-post-from-posterous-api-library-in-php-0 I am creating a Posterous API Library written in PHP. I will be releasing the source code on GitHub under the MIT License and I will post more information here and on calvinf.com when it is released.

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Fri, 04 Dec 2009 14:33:35 -0800 Gladness http://calvinf.posterous.com/gladness http://calvinf.posterous.com/gladness
If we worship the god who does nothing but kittens and pussy willows, we will end in despair. Worship the God of the jagged edge, the God whose holiness cannot be made palatable for the middle class American consumer, and the result is deep gladness. Do you hear that? Gladness, not pomposity. And, thank God, such gladness does not make us parade about with cheeks puffed slightly out, or speak with lots of rotund vowels, or strut with a sanctimonious air. Gladness, laughter, joy—set these before you. This is deep Christian faith, and not what so many are marketing today in the name of Jesus. The tragedy is that in the name of relevance the current expression of the faith in America today is superficial all the way down.
- Douglas Wilson, "The Potency of Right Worship"

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Thu, 19 Nov 2009 23:12:53 -0800 Keeping Us Awake http://calvinf.posterous.com/keeping-us-awake http://calvinf.posterous.com/keeping-us-awake
We are so often bored by speakers that anyone who can dance a gig on stage gets a vote for "keeping us awake." I hear that. But it is a dangerous heuristic -- equating entertainment with substance.
- Ben Casnocha, blog post - "Experts Who Predict the Future"

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Wed, 18 Nov 2009 20:30:31 -0800 going down the road http://calvinf.posterous.com/going-down-the-road http://calvinf.posterous.com/going-down-the-road
 I don't think there's any rich period or fallow period. That's just a perception you get from what's published. Your busiest day might be watching some ants carrying bread crumbs. Someone asked Flannery O'Connor why she wrote, and she said, "Because I was good at it." And I think that's the right answer.

Well, I don't know what of our culture is going to survive, or if we survive. If you look at the Greek plays, they're really good. And there's just a handful of them. Well, how good would they be if there were 2,500 of them? But that's the future looking back at us.

 Creative work is often driven by pain. It may be that if you don't have something in the back of your head driving you nuts, you may not do anything. 

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Tue, 17 Nov 2009 11:33:36 -0800 Abounding Grace http://calvinf.posterous.com/abounding-grace http://calvinf.posterous.com/abounding-grace
"... partakers of the divine nature..."
 
What does it matter if external circumstances are hard? Why should they not be! If we give way to self-pity and indulge in the luxury of misery, we banish God's riches from our lives and hinder others from entering into His provision.  No sin is worse than the sin of self-pity, because it obliterates God and puts self-interest upon the throne. It opens our mouths to spit out murmurings and our lives become craving spiritual sponges.
  
"God is able to make all grace abound"; then learn to lavish the grace of God on others. Be stamped with God's nature, and his blessing will come through you all the time. 
- Oswald Chambers - My Utmost for His Highest, May 16 devotional

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Fri, 13 Nov 2009 00:07:09 -0800 For Richer or Poorer http://calvinf.posterous.com/for-richer-or-poorer http://calvinf.posterous.com/for-richer-or-poorer
Poverty is uncomfortable, but regret is excruciating.
 
"...a good man will always be a good soldier; but a good soldier will not always be a good man. It's more important to be a good man."
Be a good father. Be a good husband. And don't get all caught up in some kind of false choice.
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Tue, 03 Nov 2009 11:08:16 -0800 Conquering Mountains http://calvinf.posterous.com/conquering-mountains http://calvinf.posterous.com/conquering-mountains
The lesson in this variation is that the key to avoid becoming overwhelmed by the size of the mountain is to simply focus on the step you’re currently taking, and don’t think about the next one until you’re done with the current and ready.

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Mon, 02 Nov 2009 12:50:00 -0800 quotes from a counter-culture essay http://calvinf.posterous.com/quotes-from-a-counter-culture-essay http://calvinf.posterous.com/quotes-from-a-counter-culture-essay

"How to Drop Out" - an essay by Ran Prieur (via Hacker News)

Selected quotes:
"...separate your money from your love. Get the most low-stress source of income that you can find, and then do exactly what you love for free. It might eventually make you money or it might not. "Do what you love and the money will follow" is a lie. The real rule is: "If you're doing what you love, you won't care if you never make any money from it -- but you still need money."

Getting free is not like walking through a magic doorway -- it's like growing a fruit tree.

Your expenses are your chains. Reducing them is not about punishing yourself or avoiding guilt -- it's about getting free. 

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Sat, 31 Oct 2009 11:27:00 -0700 Keep Coming Back http://calvinf.posterous.com/keep-coming-back http://calvinf.posterous.com/keep-coming-back
"It never occurred to me to think of this music in the category of old/new.  Somehow it never gets old to me.  Yet, I can't see anything new in it.  I don't feel as though it needs that.  It neither transports me to a past or future image of myself nor entertains me, it never has.  I keep coming back to:  I hear what seems real."
- The Hermit (the pseudonymous name of a friend of mine) in an email to me on Thursday

Update: The specific music being referred to is The Album Leaf.

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Tue, 27 Oct 2009 00:25:40 -0700 rich, poor, debt, love http://calvinf.posterous.com/rich-poor-debt-love http://calvinf.posterous.com/rich-poor-debt-love "The rich rules over the poor, and the borrower is the slave of the lender." - Proverbs 22:7

"Owe no one anything, except to love each other, for the one who loves another has fulfilled the law." - Romans 13:8

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Thu, 22 Oct 2009 09:08:00 -0700 I Will Love Them Freely http://calvinf.posterous.com/i-will-love-them-freely http://calvinf.posterous.com/i-will-love-them-freely

"I will love them freely" - Hosea 14:4

From a devotional referencing the works of C. H. Spurgeon comes the following:
Now, if there were any sort of fitness necessary in us, then He would not love us freely, at least, this would be a mitigation and a drawback to the freeness of it.  But it stands, "I will love you freely."
 
We complain, "Lord, my heart is so hard."
"I will love you freely."

"But I do not feel my need of Christ as I could wish."
"I will not love you because you feel your need; I will love you freely."

"But I do not feel that softening of spirit which I could desire."

Remember, the softening of spirit is not a condition, for there are no conditions; the covenant of grace has no conditionality whatever; so that we without any fitness may venture upon the promise of God which was made to us in Christ Jesus, when he said, "He that believeth on Him is not condemned."

It is blessed to know that the grace of God is free to us at all times, without preparation, without fitness, without money, and without price! "I will love them freely."

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Wed, 14 Oct 2009 14:42:59 -0700 Ideal Organizations http://calvinf.posterous.com/ideal-organizations http://calvinf.posterous.com/ideal-organizations
Idealized organizations are not perfect. They are perfectly pathological.

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